I have been so wrapped up in school, work, schedules I haven't had any time to think!
I need to blog more because life's beautiful moments are slipping by so easily, and I have nothing
to show for it. Except some iphone pictures and text conversations, to look back on.
I am a thinker. I am so engrossed in what is going on and what I want to happen I forget what
just passed me by. I literally blinked and my daughter is five years old.
5!!!
I struggle daily with feeling like an adequate mother when I still live (well- moved back) home and won't be an RN for another year. I just don't feel whole.
Plus my fingers itch to rob Target blind ....(with my money.... so maybe they are the robbers?) for bathroom towels and shower curtains, pretty platters, and mugs to add to my collection, decorative wreaths, silly framed art, end table nick-knacks. I want to be layering and creating my home. Ella's home. And instead I'm tripping over toys in my tiny bedroom. It's very disheartening.
I need to give myself credit. We are planning on moving very soon. June/July. Before my baby starts kindergarten. But I guess I am just anxious for it excited and suddenly I feel out of breath and I need to get to the finish line now. Well the finish line of this chapter.
We have learned a lot. We have gone through so much Ryan and I. I hope we make it. The odds aren't the best but who really looks at numbers anyway?
I'm betting on us.